More holiness give me

More holiness give me, more strivings within.
More patience in suffering, more sorrow for sin.
More faith in my Savior, more sense of His care.
More joy in His service, more purpose in prayer.
More gratitude give me, more trust in the Lord.
More zeal for His glory, more hope in His Word.
More tears for His sorrows, more pain at His grief.
More meekness in trial, more praise for relief.
More purity give me, more strength to o'ercome,
More freedom from earth-stains, more longings for home.
More fit for the kingdom, more useful I'd be,
More blessed and holy, more, Savior, like Thee.

Benjamin has been really sick for about a week now. Lots of throwing up and diarrhea. At first I thought it was food poisoning, but now I am not so sure. The Dr. said there is nothing she can do to help him get better, just treat the symptoms.
Today as he threw up yet again I felt like I just couldn't handle it. I am so worried about him, he has lost so much weight and has been hurting and crying so much. There had to be something I could do. So I called my sister in law who always knows just what to say. Whether she listens and sympathies or tells me straight up something I need to hear, she says it. She told me to pray. She reminded me that as a mother I have the divine right to receive personal revelation for my children and how to help them. I knew this, I had prayed about it. But I did not like the answer so I forgot about it. The Lord told me to wait and have faith. My sister in law and best friend knew just what I needed to hear to remember what the Lord wanted me to do. Now I just need to do it. It may not sound hard, but I am really having a hard time just waiting and having faith. My baby is sick and I don't want to wait, I want to DO something. But I WILL wait and I WILL have faith.