For the past few days I have been having one of those days--no not one of *those* days, the good kind. Ya know, the kind where you think your kids are super sweet, really good, and you just love them so much you want to do everything with them? Yep. One of those. Right now the kids are in their bed jumping and screaming instead of sleeping, they are threatening my mood, but still, they are in bed so it stays. I always feel like this when they are asleep, but it doesn't happen as often when they are awake, and for three days for that matter. Ok, except for last night when I had two grumpy toddlers that I was trying to get through Toys "R" Us, buying only one thing for a birthday and avoiding a melt down. Yes, there was a small break at a that time. I came home and said to my husband. "I need you. Now. Kids. Bed. Now." Do you ever feel so frazzled or upset you lose the ability to speak in complete sentences. I do. But John's friend was over and he is really misunderstanding when it comes to kids so we told stories back and forth about kids and laughed at the funny things they do and the happy feeling came back.
OK, so the real reason for blogging, other then I feel bad I haven't done it in awhile is that cute picture of Benjamin. Yeah, that one way up there before all the randomness. The library had a petting zoo day and this cute little horse, not much bigger then my little Benjamin came up to him to eat grass out of his hand. Usually Benjamin is afraid of large animals, but for some reason he and this little pony bonded. Benjamin was very sad to see him go. I look at this picture and remember how precious my children are. It all leads back to the beginning and how I have been having whole days where instead of feeling like I want to scream I feel like I just want to hold my babies, maybe it's because my babies are growing up so fast and aren't really babies anymore. Maybe I--well, it doesn't really matter does it? Whatever the reason I am grateful for it because it has led me to spend more quality time with my kids, to become more patient, to love them even more.
Do me a favor, remember that the hard times, sleepless nights, tantrums, and "No!"s won't last forever. But neither will the sweet little hand holding yours, the "Mommy kiss me."s, hugs when you're down, binkies when you cry, tickle wars, fort building, snuggle time, reading stories together, or pony rides on dad. Those times will slowly fade as they grow. Cherish these moments. Go give your kids a big squeeze, come on, you know you want to. They won't be like this for long.
